"Me"
Who am I ?
Warning! Empathy may occur...
Since there is no way to "gussy up" my life I will go with the brief, straight to the point description of me....
“It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are”
“Every great story on the planet happened when someone decided not to give up, but kept going no matter what”
I am an only child raised by a, more than, slightly neurotic single mother. My father was murdered when I was 7 years old over a drug deal gone wrong. At a young age my uncle molested me and left me with unfathomable scares. I have been unfortunate enough to watch several people die in my arms. One of them was my son when I was only 17 years old. I attended 13 different schools an unquestionably know what it is like to be "the new kid." I am an extrovert; master of disguising depression and lots of insecurities. I grew up thinking God had forsaking me.
That thought process lead to... bouts of alcoholism and drug use, high risk decisions, and a lot of preceding regrets. My past sexual relationships have been comprised of both male and female. I seem to always be chasing my idea of love, missing at every try, still figuring out how any of it all happened. I have 3 children, still living. I struggle with my own self-competence to nurture and raise my family with all life’s issues to sort out. I feel I have failed them many times, but despite me they have become good hearted people.
I am currently a Christian with a ton of flaws, but I now have hope. I believe that hope has a recipe, and the ingredients are free and attainable; by everyone. My true purpose is still not clear to me, may never be, but I instinctively gravitate to those suffering emotional turmoil and I do what I can to always help people. I have chosen to open myself so that others can find closure in them.
So it is not really about who I am, but who I believe I can be!
“It is never too late to be what you might have been”
“Don’t exchange what you want most for what you want at the moment”